Gone ..

So close enough.. My hands deep down in the ground scraping every inch of the sand. There's blood every where.. my knees dug in dirt . I stare down to my own state looking into the pool of mud that I am in.. My head keeps turning. All that i had .. God only knows what i am fighting for..

I can't feel my heart anymore.. time lay frozen with my heart melting on the ground . You cut me open ..


I try so hard not to go back cause this isn't the first time. but i cant help myself.. Hoping that it would get better in time i keep falling back in your arms and everyone around thinks I'm losing it. They don't know your embrace is the only thing that i earn for.. the only thing that i keep craving for.. They may find it hard to believe but your love's so deep in my heart that when it dies .. I ll too ..

All my blood draining out of me, i lift my face up and give one more glance at you.. And there you were.
Your eyes filled with shame, your whole body trembling, confused with what to do with me.. your eyes kept running into my eyes. Trying to look for an answer in them.

A coward. That's what i saw in your brief moment of silence. even then you were waiting for me to let you go. for me to take the fall.. to be the first to say that i want no more..
.. your feet taking one step further with every second.. u began to gain speed and before i knew .. you were gone.

YOU WERE GONE.. just like the wind .

to be continued ...