SUGAR RUSH

WE WERE TRYING OUT THESE NEW POSES AND THIS ONE TURNED OUT TO BE THE BEST

its dark .. the only light now fading in my room is that from the green bug lamp laying still on my floor.. the air is cold and its 23:20 at night. i can hear the creek sound of my fan going round and round and round. And as i sit on my bed staring at my lap thinking for the next 19 seconds what im gonne right next, the silence fills me up. I stare blank to my screen.

I keep thinking why ? why were you so off ? why did you just leave like that? I know your ps games are not much important than me .. BUT WHY ?

Somehow i have upset you and i dont know how. I keep thinking to myself what could have i done wrong? What was it that i said .. that made you left. I know it sounds silly but the simplest thing that makes you upset makes me sad.  It may be nothing but still .. You wouldnt just leave like that

You may try to make it look like as if nothings wrong. but i know .. i get the feeling that somethings just not right .. and thats how you cant hide anything from me. Im familiar with your ways . There was something off about the way you left ..I DONT KNOW .. >< i just .. get the feeling that somethings not right ! : (

I keep replaying in my head every single word you just said.. i keep trying to figure out why you seemed so off .. it hurts

now im saying sorry . I dont know what i have done . yet still im sorry :'(
i would do anything for us to be ok