Life is so unfair :( Am i paying a price for something ?
WHY?? why cant i just have happiness for more than two days..
Its so hard to breathe. I feel like i don't deserve that any more.. so hard.. So hard to breathe. I keep choking on my own words as i write this. tears rolling down my face into an endless ocean..
Just ... PLEASE .. :'( please ..
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Saturday, October 13, 2012
STEPS ON HOW TO HANDLE AN ARGUMENT IN A RELATIONSHIP
We are all different! That's the beauty of our diversity and uniqueness. And there nothing more beautiful than being different. It simply means your ONE OF A KIND :)
Being different can lead to various amounts of disagreements. It can arise from something as simple as from where to eat to which furniture to assemble in the dining room.
So lets say your having an argument with your other half! How do u handle the situation? Before reading further I want you to take some time thinking about my question. HOW DOES IT ALWAYS END UP ?
Do you yell ? throw things? stomp your feet ? whine ? bring up past mistakes ? and say things that u later regret ? most of all do u PRETEND to understand him while your actually listening to what is his side of the story ?
If that's the case, I have found out that no one is a WINNER if that, is the end result.
So I have come up with a few ways to actually sort out your arguments.Ways that would result in a more productive and positive result.
1- TRY TO SPEAK CALMLY
This is very hard to do when your sensitive about that subject, and especially when your hurt and determined that it was his/her fault. Control your voice to speak as evenly as possible no matter how much rage you got inside you. This sometimes helps you collect your thoughts and not speak without thinking. Speaking in hast and without thinking is always HARMFUL!!
2- GIVE YOUR PARTNER A CHANCE TO TELL HIS/HER SIDE OF THE STORY
I am sure you hate it when people interrupt you. Specially when your trying to state something or make a point. They must feel the same. Even if you don't agree on what hes saying just hear him out. It calms him down as well.
3- MAKE AN EXTRA EFFORT TO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOUR PARTNER IS TRYING TO SAY
It is always easy to hear what someone is saying but not really listen to them. Try to understand your partner. listen to what they are really saying, don't just pretend to listen. It is really easy to fall into the trap of thinking you know what they are saying, when in fact you may not have a clue. If your partner feels like you understand them you might just be able to end the argument way quicker than you thought.
4- DON'T BRING IN PAST ISSUES
You can never change what has already happened, so there's no means to repeating it. If you keep on dwelling with your past there's no way you can move on with your future. Your partner would feel less loved and respected and you will always feel negative towards them. Let them learn from their mistakes. Encourage them when they make right choices. After all your his/her strength. The past is past so simply let it be there.
5- DON'T SAY SOMETHING YOU WILL REGRET LATER
Always consider your relationship like a glass. When taken care of, its sturdy, tough, beautiful and clear. If it is mistreated it can end up scratched, cracked or even worse.. Broken.
Take in choosing the words you say when your really in heat.
6- DON'T DEMEAN YOUR MAN OR WOMAN!
I have seen this among my friends a lot. There comes a point in a relationship when you fight so much that you lose each others respect. Try your best NOT to get to that point. Its the worse state a relationship can get into. Never ever disrespect your partner .. no matter how wrong they are. REMEMBER, there are other ways to handle it.
7- LEARN TO COMPROMISERelationships are all about compromising. Learn to do it every once in a while, you will find your self with fewer disagreements. Be willing to come up with alternative solutions for things that your partner doesn't like as well!
8- REALIZE NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY, YOU BOTH MAY NEVER AGREE ON THE ISSUE AT HAND
A argument is always started because ultimately you want the other person to agree with what your saying. It isn't always necessary. You try to explain them facts thinking they are disagreeing because they don't know them. And eventually you will get more upset when your partner doesn't agree with you. So what ? its OK. They don't have to have the same thinking. Why ? Cause your both DIFFERENT. But, if you realize that sometimes it is best to just let yourselves agree to disagree, your will show your partner that you respect their opinion and love them for who they really are. You never know , even later on they might change their mind ;)
9- MAKE A COMMITMENT TO TALK ABOUT THE SITUATION UNTIL IT IS HANDLED
Don't give them the silent treatment. It never solves anything. You may think its far more easier to just avoid the situation. But what happens when it keeps repeating itself? Make a promise to respect each other enough to work it out. What love with out a little battle eh ? :) After your just trying to get back to being normal.
10- MAKE YOUR RELATIONSHIP THE FIRST CONCERN WHEN IN A FIGHT
I find that some people give up very easily. That when they have disagreements and arguments they think that their relationship is bad and they can no longer work it out. Don't let everything get to you. YOU FIGHT FOR THINGS YOU LOVE. And some times it helps you gain a better perspective of you better half. Don't make it a habit to break up always. GROW UP every once in a while.
Finally I am leaving you with my best tip! Let your partner know exactly when your upset. I am a person who tend to not speak up when something upsets me. I let it grow and fest inside me. And let me tell you this, It is not a happy feeling.
And I may not be the best person to give our this advice. But i do realize how important my partner is to me..and I m willing to apply these few rules on myself. I know I have faults.. i have hard time accepting them. But at the same time I am Trying my best to improve

Being different can lead to various amounts of disagreements. It can arise from something as simple as from where to eat to which furniture to assemble in the dining room.
So lets say your having an argument with your other half! How do u handle the situation? Before reading further I want you to take some time thinking about my question. HOW DOES IT ALWAYS END UP ?
Do you yell ? throw things? stomp your feet ? whine ? bring up past mistakes ? and say things that u later regret ? most of all do u PRETEND to understand him while your actually listening to what is his side of the story ?
If that's the case, I have found out that no one is a WINNER if that, is the end result.
So I have come up with a few ways to actually sort out your arguments.Ways that would result in a more productive and positive result.
1- TRY TO SPEAK CALMLY
This is very hard to do when your sensitive about that subject, and especially when your hurt and determined that it was his/her fault. Control your voice to speak as evenly as possible no matter how much rage you got inside you. This sometimes helps you collect your thoughts and not speak without thinking. Speaking in hast and without thinking is always HARMFUL!!
2- GIVE YOUR PARTNER A CHANCE TO TELL HIS/HER SIDE OF THE STORY
I am sure you hate it when people interrupt you. Specially when your trying to state something or make a point. They must feel the same. Even if you don't agree on what hes saying just hear him out. It calms him down as well.
3- MAKE AN EXTRA EFFORT TO UNDERSTAND WHAT YOUR PARTNER IS TRYING TO SAY
It is always easy to hear what someone is saying but not really listen to them. Try to understand your partner. listen to what they are really saying, don't just pretend to listen. It is really easy to fall into the trap of thinking you know what they are saying, when in fact you may not have a clue. If your partner feels like you understand them you might just be able to end the argument way quicker than you thought.
4- DON'T BRING IN PAST ISSUES
You can never change what has already happened, so there's no means to repeating it. If you keep on dwelling with your past there's no way you can move on with your future. Your partner would feel less loved and respected and you will always feel negative towards them. Let them learn from their mistakes. Encourage them when they make right choices. After all your his/her strength. The past is past so simply let it be there.
5- DON'T SAY SOMETHING YOU WILL REGRET LATER
Always consider your relationship like a glass. When taken care of, its sturdy, tough, beautiful and clear. If it is mistreated it can end up scratched, cracked or even worse.. Broken.
Take in choosing the words you say when your really in heat.
6- DON'T DEMEAN YOUR MAN OR WOMAN!
I have seen this among my friends a lot. There comes a point in a relationship when you fight so much that you lose each others respect. Try your best NOT to get to that point. Its the worse state a relationship can get into. Never ever disrespect your partner .. no matter how wrong they are. REMEMBER, there are other ways to handle it.
7- LEARN TO COMPROMISERelationships are all about compromising. Learn to do it every once in a while, you will find your self with fewer disagreements. Be willing to come up with alternative solutions for things that your partner doesn't like as well!
8- REALIZE NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY, YOU BOTH MAY NEVER AGREE ON THE ISSUE AT HAND
A argument is always started because ultimately you want the other person to agree with what your saying. It isn't always necessary. You try to explain them facts thinking they are disagreeing because they don't know them. And eventually you will get more upset when your partner doesn't agree with you. So what ? its OK. They don't have to have the same thinking. Why ? Cause your both DIFFERENT. But, if you realize that sometimes it is best to just let yourselves agree to disagree, your will show your partner that you respect their opinion and love them for who they really are. You never know , even later on they might change their mind ;)
9- MAKE A COMMITMENT TO TALK ABOUT THE SITUATION UNTIL IT IS HANDLED
Don't give them the silent treatment. It never solves anything. You may think its far more easier to just avoid the situation. But what happens when it keeps repeating itself? Make a promise to respect each other enough to work it out. What love with out a little battle eh ? :) After your just trying to get back to being normal.
10- MAKE YOUR RELATIONSHIP THE FIRST CONCERN WHEN IN A FIGHT
I find that some people give up very easily. That when they have disagreements and arguments they think that their relationship is bad and they can no longer work it out. Don't let everything get to you. YOU FIGHT FOR THINGS YOU LOVE. And some times it helps you gain a better perspective of you better half. Don't make it a habit to break up always. GROW UP every once in a while.
Finally I am leaving you with my best tip! Let your partner know exactly when your upset. I am a person who tend to not speak up when something upsets me. I let it grow and fest inside me. And let me tell you this, It is not a happy feeling.
And I may not be the best person to give our this advice. But i do realize how important my partner is to me..and I m willing to apply these few rules on myself. I know I have faults.. i have hard time accepting them. But at the same time I am Trying my best to improve

Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Gone ..
So close enough.. My hands deep down in the ground scraping every inch of the sand. There's blood every where.. my knees dug in dirt . I stare down to my own state looking into the pool of mud that I am in.. My head keeps turning. All that i had .. God only knows what i am fighting for..
I can't feel my heart anymore.. time lay frozen with my heart melting on the ground . You cut me open ..
I try so hard not to go back cause this isn't the first time. but i cant help myself.. Hoping that it would get better in time i keep falling back in your arms and everyone around thinks I'm losing it. They don't know your embrace is the only thing that i earn for.. the only thing that i keep craving for.. They may find it hard to believe but your love's so deep in my heart that when it dies .. I ll too ..
All my blood draining out of me, i lift my face up and give one more glance at you.. And there you were.
Your eyes filled with shame, your whole body trembling, confused with what to do with me.. your eyes kept running into my eyes. Trying to look for an answer in them.
A coward. That's what i saw in your brief moment of silence. even then you were waiting for me to let you go. for me to take the fall.. to be the first to say that i want no more..
.. your feet taking one step further with every second.. u began to gain speed and before i knew .. you were gone.
YOU WERE GONE.. just like the wind .
to be continued ...
Monday, October 8, 2012
Sunday, October 7, 2012
12 STEPS TO SURVIVING A LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.
- Eff the haters
- Have an idea when the distance will end
- Stay positive
- Make a plan for how often you will take and when
- Have a life
- Use technology
- Plan a visitation schedule. Alternate visits.
- Figure out your fight patterns.
- Refrain from freaking the fuck out.
- Miss each other
- Send each other things
- Surprise your significant other at least once
She holds her breath and counts to ten!
Her face gleaming with rays of light drawn from the window, the shadows of her curtain carelessly fallen on to her feet, slowly moving across her thighs and grasping her whole body. Just like as if they were caressing her. She lay frozen for those few minutes thinking what happened last night.
With a blink she gazed at the tiny specs of dust floating in air above her. Entwined with each other.. So free.. So in love with the easiness .. floating in their own weight. the entire dust was dancing above her.How she wished it was her.
It was the emptiness that filled in her chest, the clench of a beast down her throat. She crippled and flipped herself to the other side. Without giving much thought to it she gazed back at the dust's. For a while she thought it was OK. Only if the time would seal itself to such a perfect time where everything was in balance. To a moment where you do not have to think, a moment where you could just lay your eyes open and feel nothing. A place where you would not wish that you could go back and change what happened. No regrets.
If ONLY there was such a place like that.In agony she shut her eyes. Squeezing her eye lids so hard together that a tear rolled town her cheek... She could feel the cold drop of salt running down her face awakening her senses. Her muscles started to starve, stretching her from one end to another.
Suddenly she opened her eyes, grasping for air. Her chest inflated with emptiness expanded and she felt a rush of heat satisfying herself within.
She realized____________ the feeling that comes after fighting with someone u love is much more painful than running out of air to breathe.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Party Games
When it comes to kids birthdays we need not say how out of control it can get .Here are some Great ideas for games to play at your kid's party ! This way not only you can keep them entertained but also keep them in order and in groups where you can handle the situation much better .
I and my friend recently had a party planned for my 9 year old cousin. The theme was angry birds. Kids love that. Specially boys . We had all the colors jumbled up every where together with colored angry bird faced helium balloons up to the ACTUAL GAME !
Yes. We created a scene with different sizes of card board boxes covered with brown paper. We also had red, blue and green colored balls to throw and also had a strong sling shot made which was dug deep into the ground. This wasn't as simple as it sounds but once it was done, lets just say IT PAID OFF.
Not only did the kids play it, but their dad's also joined in. Isn't that great ?
I don't have pictures right now. But i ll upload them some time very soon .
Ok, so moving on with the LIST
first is
Pinata games are a classic. But whats so different about this one ?
When it's full, tie it tightly with string and attach a string to hang it from a hook or doorway.
The idea is simple: try to hit the bag with a wooden spoon. Your kids will shake out a lot of sillies using the bag as a target.
Instruct the children to stand in two single-file lines, facing forward.
Place a balloon between the knees of the first child in each line.
When the race starts, the first child on each team turns to face the next person in line.
The second child must grasp the balloon with his or her knees and turn to pass it on to the third person, and so on.
If the balloon falls to the ground, the team must start over. The first team to successfully pass the balloon down the line wins!
Separate the children into teams and give each team a set of clues and party favours to find.
Give each child a bag to put their favours in and make sure that each guest has at least one favour so nobody feels left out. The clues and favours should lead them to the location of the cake.
We recommend keeping the cake close at hand and under adult supervision. Excited children running through the house with a cake can be messy! The first team to locate the cake gets served first.
Then with your left forefinger, count the fingers on your right hand: "Six, seven, eight, nine, ten."
Say: "That's funny, I'm sure I had eleven fingers before. Let me try again."
This time count backwards, pointing to the fingers of the left hand: "Ten, nine, eight, seven, six..."
Hold up your left hand and say: "Six fingers on this hand..."
Then hold up your right hand and say: "Five fingers on this hand. Five plus six makes eleven!"
The other players should form a circle and hold hands.
The player who is the mouse should stand inside the circle and the cat should stand outside the circle.
The aim of the game is for the mouse to get outside the circle and avoid being caught by the cat.
The mouse must stay moving while inside the circle but cannot stay inside the circle for more than 10 seconds.
The cat cannot come into the circle but they can reach into the circle to grab the mouse.
The circle players have to try and keep the cat away from the mouse by holding up their hands to let the mouse in and out of the circle.
They can also block the cat's attempts to grab the mouse by standing in their way.
If the mouse is caught, the mouse becomes the new cat.
The old cat takes the place of a player holding hands and another player becomes the mouse.
I and my friend recently had a party planned for my 9 year old cousin. The theme was angry birds. Kids love that. Specially boys . We had all the colors jumbled up every where together with colored angry bird faced helium balloons up to the ACTUAL GAME !
Yes. We created a scene with different sizes of card board boxes covered with brown paper. We also had red, blue and green colored balls to throw and also had a strong sling shot made which was dug deep into the ground. This wasn't as simple as it sounds but once it was done, lets just say IT PAID OFF.
Not only did the kids play it, but their dad's also joined in. Isn't that great ?
I don't have pictures right now. But i ll upload them some time very soon .
Ok, so moving on with the LIST
first is
1-Bag target piñata game
Pinata games are a classic. But whats so different about this one ?
This is an easy everyday version of a pinata game (minus the sugar) that
will use up some energy and help your kids practice gross motor skills
at the same time.
What you need:
- A bag made of strong paper, plastic or fabric
- Newspaper
- String
- A wooden spoon
Activity:
Get your kids to help you tear up newspaper and roll it into balls to fill the punching bag. Stuff it nice and full (the tearing and scrunching is the best part for two year olds.)When it's full, tie it tightly with string and attach a string to hang it from a hook or doorway.
The idea is simple: try to hit the bag with a wooden spoon. Your kids will shake out a lot of sillies using the bag as a target.
Hints and tips:
- You could make a craft activity out of making your own simple drawstring bag and decorating it with a clown face for parties.
2-Balloon relay race
This game is fun for indoor and outdoor parties - just make sure you have a good stash of balloons before you begin just in case any of them unexpectedly pop in the rush of the game!What you need:
- Packet of balloons
Activity:
Instruct the children to stand in two single-file lines, facing forward.Place a balloon between the knees of the first child in each line.
When the race starts, the first child on each team turns to face the next person in line.
The second child must grasp the balloon with his or her knees and turn to pass it on to the third person, and so on.
If the balloon falls to the ground, the team must start over. The first team to successfully pass the balloon down the line wins!
3-Birthday cake hunt
Kids love to hunt for surprises! So on your child’s big day, create a special hunt for the birthday cake! You will need the help of a few family members, neighbours or friends.Number of players:
6+What you need:
- Clues
- Party favours
- Cake
Activity:
Separate the children into teams and give each team a set of clues and party favours to find. Give each child a bag to put their favours in and make sure that each guest has at least one favour so nobody feels left out. The clues and favours should lead them to the location of the cake.
We recommend keeping the cake close at hand and under adult supervision. Excited children running through the house with a cake can be messy! The first team to locate the cake gets served first.
4-Eleven fingers trick
Magic tricks are a fun way to improve your child's cognitive thinking. Try teaching them this sneaky counting trick to play on unsuspecting friends and relatives.Activity:
The effect:
By counting in a certain way, you can convince your friends that you have eleven fingers.The trick:
Using your right forefinger to point with, touch each finger of your left hand, counting out loud: "One, two, three, four, five."Then with your left forefinger, count the fingers on your right hand: "Six, seven, eight, nine, ten."
Say: "That's funny, I'm sure I had eleven fingers before. Let me try again."
This time count backwards, pointing to the fingers of the left hand: "Ten, nine, eight, seven, six..."
Hold up your left hand and say: "Six fingers on this hand..."
Then hold up your right hand and say: "Five fingers on this hand. Five plus six makes eleven!"
5-Cat and mouse
Looking for a great outdoor activity for the kids? Get them into a Cat and mouse game! It's a fast, fun and exciting game to keep the kids laughing and running at your next birthday party or family gathering.Number of players:
6+Activity:
Ask for two volunteers to play the cat and the mouse.The other players should form a circle and hold hands.
The player who is the mouse should stand inside the circle and the cat should stand outside the circle.
The aim of the game is for the mouse to get outside the circle and avoid being caught by the cat.
The mouse must stay moving while inside the circle but cannot stay inside the circle for more than 10 seconds.
The cat cannot come into the circle but they can reach into the circle to grab the mouse.
The circle players have to try and keep the cat away from the mouse by holding up their hands to let the mouse in and out of the circle.
They can also block the cat's attempts to grab the mouse by standing in their way.
If the mouse is caught, the mouse becomes the new cat.
The old cat takes the place of a player holding hands and another player becomes the mouse.
if you like these ideas let me know with a comment and i ll get back to you with more creative and fun games .
And then you came along ...
He makes me Happy . And being Happy is a wonderful feeling .. I hope you as well will find your happiness one day .. (:
What happens when your the main source of the pain !
Just carry on, even though u hear my voice just pretend that im not there. Maybe even you could walk past by knocking me a lil. Baby dont feel the pain and when im gone just carry on
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Try your name and see what it is ! :D
A: hot
B: loves people
C: good kisser
D: makes people laugh
E: has gorgeous eyes
F: people wild and crazy adore you
G: very outgoing
H: easy to fall in love with
I: loves to laugh and smile
J: is really sweet
K: really silly
L: smile to die for
M: makes dating fun
N: can kick the shit out of u
O: has one of the best personalities ever
P: popular with all types of people
Q: a hypocrite
R: good boyfriend or girlfriend
S: cute
T: very good kisser
U: is very sexual
V: not judgmental
W: very broad minded
X: never let people tell you what to do
Y: is loved by everyone
Z: can be funny and dumb at times
B: loves people
C: good kisser
D: makes people laugh
E: has gorgeous eyes
F: people wild and crazy adore you
G: very outgoing
H: easy to fall in love with
I: loves to laugh and smile
J: is really sweet
K: really silly
L: smile to die for
M: makes dating fun
N: can kick the shit out of u
O: has one of the best personalities ever
P: popular with all types of people
Q: a hypocrite
R: good boyfriend or girlfriend
S: cute
T: very good kisser
U: is very sexual
V: not judgmental
W: very broad minded
X: never let people tell you what to do
Y: is loved by everyone
Z: can be funny and dumb at times
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Put your arms around me and Hold ..
I have died every day waiting for you.. I believed you ll be there in time, watching you stand still.Diminishing everything in me, standing in front of me .. Waiting for you to take one step closer.
One step closer .. and you could have saved me
I have grown too weak to fall back into that ground, taring me apart.
It took so long to come back, just to feel alright. Took me a thousand years to light back my room.
wishing you would come around but you were knocking me off the ground from the very beginning. I cant decide weather u left me drowning or in death. The agony that never stops . The suffocation that i cant seem to reach back to air.
I hope someone catches me because I'm already falling.
Monday, October 1, 2012
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